I have humility and I have been made humble by space whales. I have been brought up on charges for court-martial. I have been exiled by my own people.
I am not a warmongerer.
I was trained to use all the intelligence to devise the best tactical response and strategy for war. I study war and work to perfect it — to shorten time in battle, commitment of warriors and to, yes, save lives and minimize casualties.
I’m sure others see my achievements as vile, but did I complete my mission?
A good offensive strategy also requires a good defensive one.
But tides of war and philosophy change the longer one stays involved in it.
Perhaps a break is required.
(This is a meta headcanon)